Gratitude and Fear
"I looked at him, touching his face again briefly before placing both of my hands under the side of my face...'I never fully appreciated the restraint it took you to be with me. You never lost control. Even the night you seemed to, what upset you wasn't that you lost control so much as that you didn't please me first. You were always aware of me. You could have impaled me. Literally. And then the first time I touch you, I hurt you -'
...'It's not the same thing. Not at all.' His voice was firm.
'I know, of course, I know. But even so, it was so hard to see how my touch affected you. The entire time I was...changing...I was so focused on this one thought. That when I awoke I had to tell you what it meant to me, I had to tell you that I understand what you did for me. I listened to your voice, concentrated on your voice. I had to try to show you how grateful I was, how much I love you, and love you even more for what it took for you to be with me. I wanted to kiss you, to pour my love into that kiss...'
...'This is all your creation, love. It's coming from you, not me.' His hand stroked my cheek softly, his fingers moving to trace the outline of my lipse. 'I feel you. What I need is for you to let go....'
...Edward was silent for a minute, watching me. He chuckled humorlessly. 'It would appear that our roles have reversed. I'm trying to convince you to let go. You'll just have to trust how completely different the circumstances - '
'Oh my God, Edward,' I interrupted him. 'It's nothing like what you dealt with. That's what...' I sighed, feeling exasperated with myself, realizing it just needed to be figured out. 'I just have a lot to tell you, a lot to tell you now, and not with words. What you did for me these last two years...I just don't know how to tell you everything I need to, to with this body yet...and it's...frustrating.'
...'I promise I'll tell you if you hurt me. Just try to let go. I need you to let go. Pull my hair. Crush me. Need me.' He growled as he pulled me onto his lap so I was straddling him. 'And Bella: I know you're only twelve hours in.' He chuckled at himself. 'I can't promise to be as patient as I probably should be, because I have needed you like this for so long. But I do know I have an eternity for my own sexy vampire fantasies.' He laughed against my lips."
"'Finally, his voice in my ear: 'Should we go see the family?' It was a whispered question; I could tell he didn't want to rush me.
'Yes, I suppose we should spend some time with them before we go to bed. What time is it?'
He chuckled. 'Close to two, I'm guessing. And, love, there is no more 'going to bed' for you.'
'I know,' I looked at him, smiling wickedly. 'That isn't what I meant.'
He pulled me closer to his chest, kissing my lips, murmuring, 'Really, now. So what did you mean?' His eyes were smoldering.
'I meant that I think every night, from midnight to six a.m., should be our time. We should go to bed together, or at least be alone together, every night for that time. Starting tonight.'
He looked at me a long moment before smiling, his face turning up to the sky. 'I love you, Bella.'"
"Carlisle didn't say anything at first, but his eyes were reassuring as I held his gaze, needing him to say something. After a moment he spoke, 'You have high expectations for yourself, Bella. I know Edard needs you but this is a lot to take in. We all know that. Edward knows that. And the good news for you is that you have probably the best people here to help you.' He indicated Emmett and Jasper....
...We did more strength and balance exercises; each exercise made me more comfortable in my new body. I walked on my hands, I jumped from tree to tree, I carried Alice in one hand with my eyes closed, and then balanced Rosalie on my feet as I stood on my hands. I kissed everyone's cheek, I shook everyone's hand, I rumpled everyone's hair. I held a stick as a pencil, going through ten sticks before I didn't snap one immediately. We laughed at the things they came up with, but I found they were really helping me and I didn't actually feel that silly doing it with them; they all made me feel so comfortable and supported because I knew at least some of them had gone through this together, too....
...I had smelled him before I saw him, my eyes trained on the space where I knew he would emerge. He smiled at his siblings, but turned his attention to me, his golden eyes glowing. 'It's midnight.' He said quietly. I stood and walked to everyone, giving appropriately strong hugs, thanking everyone for their help, and said goodnight.
Edward lifted me onto his back to run back to the house; I knew he wanted me touching him right away.
You're All I Want
"Our kiss deepened and he pulled my shirt over my head, his hands hungry on my skin, his voice in my ear telling me how good I felt against him. I pulled his shirt off, ripping it slightly. He smiled at me as I scowled, his lips meeting mine in soft reassurance. His mouth moved to my neck, to kiss my scar again before moving to my collarbone, to my breasts as he freed them from my bra. His hands held my breasts, his eyes looking at my body in his hands as he squeezed me, pinched me, and bent to lick my nipples....
...'You're all I want.' His voice was barely audible....
...I moved up his chest, pinching his nipple slightly. He cried out in my mouth, 'Yes, Bella...' I lowered my mouth down his neck, along his shoulders, tasting his warm skin, his muscles moving underneath as his hands explored my body on top of him.
I took his nipple into my mouth, licking, sucking, and nibbling it as gently as I could. He arched his back against me, his fingers snaking underneath me to touch my wet flesh over his stomach. I cried out at the contact on my sensitive body, licking him fast, my tongue flicking against his nipple before I bit him, too hard. He yelped slightly, and then growled at me. My hands slowly moved up his chest to tangle in his sexy hair, to feel the softness against my fingers. He pulled my hand away gently as my hand pulled his head off the pillow with the tension in my grasp. I tried to move my hand to my side, to slow down while I let my mouth explore him, but Edward held my hand firmly against his hair. 'Don't.' He breathed. 'You won't hurt me. I'm just showing you.'...
...'Don't stop.'
...'I'm hurting you.'
Touch Me
"Before I could pull my arm away again, before I could even think to react, Edward had flipped me over onto my stomach and pinned my arms tightly against my back, his large hand gripping both of my wrists, his other hand holding my head down. My face was pressed into the pillow, my body flat against the bed underneath him. He leaned over me, his hard cock pressing into my back. 'Bella, darling. Maybe I wasn't clear before. I told you that you can't hurt me. Do you really think I can't handle you?' His laugh was low in my ear. I felt a moan escape my lips, my body drenched for him. 'I've been around a long time, love. Get over this nonsense. Touch me.' He pulled my hips up so that I was on my knees. He pushed my head back down against the pillow and whispered, 'I'm going to turn you around, and you're going to take these little hands,' he bend down and took one of my fingers into his mouth, sucking it, swirling his tongue around it, 'and put these fingers around my hard cock. Do you feel me behind you?' I nodded, panting, feeling him pressing against my ass.' I don't care whether you stroke me or suck me, but you are going to make me come so hard that I forget my name. Can you do that for me, Bella?' He pushed his erection against my ass, a low moan escaping my lips.
'Yes baby,' I whispered, breathless. My body was so wet for him, I felt insane with need. 'Let me show you.'...
...We were completely still for a moment, my body perfectly comfortable balanced as it was. The sounds of the ocean filled the room, the sound of us breathing. He let my legs down and turned me around to face him, kissing and licking my lips softly, telling me how much he loved me, how much he missed me while he was gone on his hunt.
'It's only two in the morning. What should we do now?' I asked quietly."
Review by Feisty Y. Beden:
"Holy fucksticks, I ... oh my god you owe me yet another pair of pants. HOLY FUCK. Oh mah gah ... uhh ... guh ... I think I blacked out.
But I want hot vampire sex NOW! I am Veruca Salt Vampire. HOT VAMPIRE SEX NOW WHY I NO HAVE HOT VAMPIRE SEX? WHAT I NEED TO DO FOR HOT VAMPIRE SEX?
everybody's got nice stuff but me.
Also, "You need the silence with me." SO beautiful, such an explanation of why he's so drawn to her. And then her speech after that had me all choked up, about how she finally understood the enormity (no pun intended) of his sacrifice and restraint for the last two years.
And the family's seeing her for the whole time was awesome. I love that she and Rosie are friends. LOVED the training with the family, and the crazy hot between Jasper and Bella. And Alice acknowledging it. Oh mah gah. I ... venom ... [blackout]"
Great quote via Feisty Y. Beden:
"You needed the silence with me." (so good it deserved to be quoted twice)
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